Shout outs

to my father in ny
to my mother in mass
to my grand parents in mass ct and aunt and uncle and cousin in NJ
to the rest of my family; Was good?!!!

how i feel

Soul, 3/13/07 tuesday

Since recovering from being emo I feel better but still kind of crappy. I changed about two months ago. Just as an explanation, people think that emos are poser that just act like they hate thier life just to look cool. Sometimes that is the case. But some of them like me; actually have emotional problems. Why I made the change: So I could be more positive and love life, and accept how I look, or accept what I am. It was really hard to make the change, you know being locked up cant get too many hair cuts, not having many chances to get different clothing, religon is a different story though... they have christian services at where I am at now. I used to be satanist-emo but now I have run away from both of those "titles" and have become a teen looking for something meaningful instead hurting myself over stupid reasons like girl problems and stuff like that, casting spells on people who talk crap and piss me off, but look for something more righteous. Know what I mean. Right now I feel normal but most of the time I get so overwhelmed with emotions. But I'm good right now.


Soul 3/15/07

Today I feel alot better. I did get a label today from some kid but I could care less about labels and titles now. The label was learning disabled retard. Yesterday on wednesday I got rid of most of my emo cloths and started a new life of casual/ghetto. But I will always love my death metal and punk rock music.

Soul 3/21/07
My life is goin good. Got some album ready from using screenblast acid recordering and mix software. Life is good.

Soul 3/29/07
I have been really depressed lately about one of my friends backstabbing me and dating a girl that I care about. I should'nt give a crap but for some reason I do. I think about her constantly and still increasing. If n e 1 has n e advice please post at comments.

Soul 5/17/07
Haven't been on lately. It's all good. I realized that life holds a purpose spiritually. To believe in naturalism. That's what we live for, naturals, minerals, spell casting to help the will and physical will of others. (White Wicca) There really isn't any satan. Satan was made up by some guy who wanted top scare the church. But this person (this is back in the time of the dark ages) was known to pull pranks on many religous groups. But if you noticed that the jewish bible has no indications of satan, only one God. But that God is just worship all the same but in different ways. polytheism just makes alot more sense than just the practice of one on going religon. Those are My beliefs. Just think about it all.